I thought it’s about time I do a little blog update. Visitors to my yogahound blog remain constant, recipes, knitting patterns and crochet patterns all still seem rather popular, and I am reminded that I ought to blog more often really.
What’s been really interesting the past years is that I have had to wak-up to the little signs in life about which path to take… having come from almost 10 years of doing the 9 – 5 work routine full-time, I had my habits, my routines and life seemed fairly, wells, simple. In January 2014, I went freelance with my photography, did freelance publishing work on the side and started up a new yoga class (or so I thought). It’s not been an easy road, but there’s been some pretty powerful lessons in it for me which I’d like to share…
The first few months of 2014 were harrowing, and confusing, especially when it came to teaching yoga… the Saturday morning yoga classes just kept going wrong, either the door of the studio would get stuck, I got flu and had to cancel, the studio wasn’t available last minute… so I changed venues. The change of venue wasn’t any easier… and I thought “Right, life is trying to tell me something”. So I cancelled all my teaching for the time being. A few months later I got offered the chance to teach a reular Tuesday night class in a Brighton Office – it was just what I was after to keep my yoga teaching going whilst everything else was happening.
Lesson no 1 - If something feels really difficult to keep going with, ask yourself if you’re on the right road. Sometimes things will be tough, of course, but when thinsg keep going wrong ask yourself if there’s a reason, and if it’s time to let go. As soon as I let go of the Saturday classes, another much better opportunity presented itself, and it was just what I needed for my yoga teaching.
Another thing that happened was that my freelance design work was taking up so much space that my photography business, well, just flat-lined. It was pretty scary giving up on big freelance projects that could provide me with a certain income, but my photography is what I feel really passionate about, and if I let fear of lack of income drive my choices, the thing I felt passionate about would never be able to provide me with an income. So I took the plunge and focused on the photography, and it really has been worth the effort, even if I still have a long way to go.
Lesson no 2 – Don’t let the fear of “what ifs” drive your decision making, you won’t know until you try. Life is too short to live in fear.
Whilst so many changes were happening, at times I felt dreadfully stressed, worn out and drained. And with that I reverted to just ‘eating’. By that I mean, I stopped looking after what I was eating, it was easier to just run past the shops and buy easy carbs to eat. After all, I just started a new business, shouldn’t be allowed to eat whatever? And then I got stuck in the habit of eating whatever. Food choices are habitual. I knew that I felt, looked better and had more energy when avoiding grains, but the carb addiction kicked in and I was having a ball, except I wasn’t really because I didn’t have much energy. Once again life had a way to ‘show’ me what wasn’t working. I’m happily grain free and eating tons of fats again. Did you know that a very high fat, low carb diet can help with epilepsy? I am not epileptic myself (more on that later) but once again I am reminded that we are what we eat. I can honestly say when not eating healthfully I didn’t respond well to stress, my skin went pasty and blotchy, my energy levels were down and I just wasn’t myself. It’s been a month since being grain free once more, and I actually feel more like my ‘notmal’ calm self.
Lesson no 3 – You REALLY are what you eat, make a habit of choosing food to enable you to be the best you can.
Moving on from a divorce (my decision) was really tough. At times I felt that the guilt (based upon letting my ex-husband, his family and my family down) would actually physically eat me up from inside. And I was constantly doubting myself, so choosing to change where I lived, what I did for a living and moving into a new relationship all seemed like it may distract me, but it actually only highlighted the guilt… that is until I allowed myself to trust again. Mainly to trust myself, I was so fearful of letting people down once more that it was holding me back emotionally. Gradually, I worked to shift that guilt and I did that through allowing myself to trust my decision making, and the people around me.
Lesson no 4 – Trust. Let your guard down becaue we need to trust our own decisions, and we need to allow ourselves to trust others.
And lastly, after the sadness that followed losing the original Yogahound “Banjo”, I didn’t think I’d want to let another hound in my life, certainly not so soon. But life once again threw a curve ball and along came another rescue dog named Chunk. Not a greyhound, just a purebred ‘mutt’, crossed with goodness knows what, Chunky arrived in my home and heart earlier this year at the young age of 6 months. And although he challenged me with his misbehaving and all round puppy naughtiness, I am again amazed at how animals are therapeutic on so many levels. All he wants is a warm bed (which often means sneaking in under the covers), food and love and even though he was discarded once, he gave us his full trust and loyalty.
Lesson no 5 – Adopt an animal. It is worth all the effort, the poop scooping, walks in the rain, to see a once discarded animal happy and loved.
So there is my rather more lengthy than intended update. Below are some of my highlights from this year so far, remeber that these highlights were only possible because of enduring the low times.
Photographing Dancers & yogis…
As part of projects for my commercial photography at www.hanri.co.uk
Photographing Brides & Grooms
My new wedding photography website www.h-photo.co.uk has finally gone live and updated.
I have some amazing broth recipes and posts about dental health coming soon!
Have a great week xxx